time to say good-bye...

It's been a long time; too long to do any sort of revival..

Today morning my impulsive instincts kicked in and I have decided to move on.. away from this part of my life... This had been my space to mainly rant.. There were never substantial posts to begin with anyway..

I have to stop now... I will probably start again in the new year.. I want to come back with something more meaningful and worthful to read... It has been a good journey and all good things have to come to an end at some point in time..

So till the new journey begins.. Happy Holidays to all and have a blast beginning the new year!

:)

i couldn't post these on facebook...

used to like this song..



this i couldn't embed..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SZ9OO-BOruU

i like the scene :)

*dreamy look*

lost again?

I am embarking on something new. Something that I have never thought of doing before. And, once again I am at the juncture where I like to think of many other options and situations and so make myself go through CONFUSION.

It's either a ARIES thing or a human thing. To always think that that could have been better when you are settling down on something new. I always start off with no confidence, stinking low self-esteem and an incredible sense of failure.

I hate myself for this. Having second thoughts when I should be on the ball, moving on and getting into the flow of things.

However, I love myself for the coping mechanisms. I tell myself that I have to do it and so push myself to the extremes.

My personality tests tell me that I am an extrovert. I laugh. I am seriously not. I love to be at the backstage of everything. I love the idea of putting things together and cherish the end result. But, I can never be the centre of attention. I can never make friends easily. I am so guarded. I am so afraid. I hate to have to introduce myself and forge new bonds. I am so not sociable. I always need a trigger to help me make the first move.

So now, I am back to telling myself that I HAVE TO DO IT. Am I doing something beneficial or is it just a waste of time and money? That is something time would tell but I am determined and mule-headed to never make it the latter.

I am back to working hard as ever. And at times, I get angry for not getting the real fruits of my labour. I hate going back home late nearly everyday. I hate not getting to see my mother and having a chit-chat with her. I know she is hating it as well. I hate sleeping late and waking up feeling that I never slept at all. I hate not having time to do my personal things and they always end up getting postponed. :(

Sheesh... Of late I have been thinking a lot about my career and sometimes I think I should have just shut it and taken up Mr Michael's offer. *HEAVY SIGH*

Teaching is what I love but somehow I do not see myself doing it as a sole job. It has always been a supplementary job and I hope it will remain that way for a long time to come.

I think I am done with my ranting. I had to get it off my chest. :)

*Durga I cannot wait to see the makeup!*

Happy birthday darling!

I am back to work after almost 2days of MC. Haiz.. Since I was so free yesterday I baked a cake upon Durga's suggestion for Devan. :)

Ya I know I am not BIG on creativity. :p

So apparently the cake was yummy though I found it a little too sweet and crumbly. I got to bake more! (when I find the time and desire)

Pravin has left for US.
:(

Oh well.. we will get over it gradually and before we know it he will be back! I just hope the trip will do wonders to him and his career.

I got to go see patients now...


Happy Birthday D!

:)

Har Janam Mein, Rang Badalke
In every lifetime, the colors will change

Kaabhon Ke Paardon Pein Hum Khilte
We blossom behind the curtains of dreamland

Hum Hain Raahi Pyar Ke, Phir Milenge Chalte Chalte
We are travelers on the path of love, We’ll meet again as time goes by

one of my evergreen favourites

Wake up!

I am bored stiff at work. I got to do SOMETHING! Hopefully the meeting on Wednesday goes well!

Devan's parents have made THE VISIT! LOL. We have yet to plan things but I can imagine myself going crazy. :)

I went over to his place yesterday and it felt so good. :) Still feeling a little strange but thawing a bit more already. Shirodini is soooo adorable! Love her eyes!

I love this song at the moment. And yes wedding songs and family songs are making me feel so emo! Lol. Rajeswari being sappy.. bloody hell!




Oh and I can't believe that I came this far without a haircut! Need one desperately!!!